O Lord, do not forsake me! My God, why do you stay afar off? Make haste and come to my help, O Lord, my God, my savior!
There is nothing more clear in Scripture to describe the past few months of my life. The assault on my daughter has shaken my faith in a way I never would have imagined. Beside the fact that my daughter is still reeling emotionally and psychologically from all this, the whole experience has isolated me from God, and made me wonder why He is so far off. It has been a Lent of suffering, open and oozing wounds, raw flesh and brokenness.
It is fitting to join in the Church's prayers during the Holy Week, especially pondering Christ on the Cross. While I can in no way fully understand his Sacrifice, I can feel the pain of isolation and abandonment.
Keep praying fervently during these holiest of days that our hearts can be as pure in love as that of Christ's.